I’ve been part of a medical research study for the past two years through which I’ve been able to get Rituximab infusions. Rituximab is a chemotherapy originally used for lymphoma cancer patients, and wipes out B-cells.
In an autoimmune condition like mine (Devic’s/neuromyelitis optica), one’s own cells begin attacking oneself instead of outside invaders or infections. The medical hypothesis for using Rituximab is that by wiping out the B-cells, the exacerbations (which take the form of spinal or optic nerve inflammation, resulting in varying degrees of paralysis or blindness) can be stopped.
Alhamdolillah I’ve been stable for the past two years on this treatment but now the study has ended and my B-cells are back, which means I could have another exacerbation at any time. The chemo is very expensive - around $30,000 a pop - so I’m dependent on my insurance approving the medication for my continued use and well-being.
Today we got the news that they’ve denied the request because it isn’t an FDA-approved drug for my condition.
Considering how rare Devic’s is, nothing is an approved treatment and they’ve chosen to ignore clear evidence that it has helped me. I went from seven exacerbations in 2005 alone to zero since I started the treatment two years ago. I’m not sure why the insurance agency would prefer to pay for repeated hospitalizations - which are far more expensive than chemo infusions - but there it is.
Given that it’s the last week of Ramadan, I’d like to request all of you to please remember me in your prayers. Insha-Allah, we’re going to appeal the decision and I hope they’ll reconsider.
I’m very stressed as my symptoms have been acting up for the past week, but I’m also praying for health because all healing, with or without medication, lies in God’s hands alone.
Thank you and jazak Allah khair!




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October 7, 2007 at 9:51 am
UmmFarouq
May Allah heal you. May Allah heal you. May Allah heal you, dear sister. May the insurance company retract its decision and approve your treatment. How sick it makes me that many treatments, even if they are “cutting edge” or “not FDA approved” are denied of people, because of the red, red tape of the insurance ’system.’
Aspartame is FDA approved. It is killing people all over the place. Your treatment helped you, and you are being denied it. It’s just insane.
May Allah heal you, dear sister.
October 7, 2007 at 10:47 am
Maliha
Salamaat,
I hate Insurance companies in this country. I am so sorry to hear about the decision, and Inshaallah they will reconsider, you just have to keep fighting through the red tape. May Allah ease your affairs (amin)
October 7, 2007 at 12:24 pm
otowi
You have my prayers.
I think your insurance company is not allowed to approve even if someone there wanted to, until FDA approves. Unfortunately, the system takes too long to help many people.
I pray for your best health in all ways always.
October 7, 2007 at 4:01 pm
Achelois
Salaam Baraka
Allah has strange ways of opening and reaching our hearts, clasping the most precious duas from within our hearts into His merciful hands and then uttering a mere “Kun.”
May Allah soon reach all the hearts that make dua for you, dear heart. May He grant you health and strength and all that you need you recover soon. Ameen.
I am praying for you and will link this post on my blog, iA.
Lots and lots of love,
Suroor
October 7, 2007 at 4:20 pm
gail
You are always in my prayers, Baraka, but now more than ever.
October 7, 2007 at 5:44 pm
Umm Zaid
insh’Allah they will come to their senses. May Allah ta’ala heal you.
October 7, 2007 at 6:15 pm
ann adams
My friend, you are never far from my prayers and thoughts.
Even when we don’t make contact that often, I think of you and hope you are doing well.
October 7, 2007 at 6:48 pm
Gulnari
I hope with all my heart that this problem gets resolved soon Inshallah. May Allah heal you and protect you my dear beloved sister.
October 7, 2007 at 8:12 pm
Basil
Insha’Allah, all will work out for the best, my beloved.
October 7, 2007 at 11:12 pm
Muse
Dear sweet Baraka, may Allah (swt) grant you healing and health (ameen, ameen). Insurance companies be damned, Allah (swt) is on your side, and whom He favors none can overcome. All my prayers are with you.
October 8, 2007 at 5:16 am
skarim
baraka - i was so sad to read this. may Allah (swt) heal you, and grant you victory in your appeal. may thoughts and du’aas are with you.
much love,
s.
October 8, 2007 at 6:55 am
Hayah
Allah is most Gracious, Most Merciful…he is sure to answer such a sincere duas. Insha Allah everything will work out. May He who is the giver of conditions, make conditions easy for you…
Love and slmz
October 8, 2007 at 11:15 am
Pam
Thank you for visiting my blog. I am glad that you did, for it brought me here, to yours. The two poems you shared are exquisite - so much emotion.
I was sorry, however, to learn of your illness and your subsequent difficulties. I do not understand our insurance companies. In their quest for a better bottom line they don’t look at the big picture and end up spending more than they save, leaving suffering and heartache in their wake. I, too, have a rare or “orphan” disease, and understand your plight.
Sometimes a good attitude is all we have, that and prayers. I send you mine.
October 8, 2007 at 1:30 pm
Zahra
you are in my thoughts and my duas. if you need something else, please let me know.
lots of love and support,
zahra
October 8, 2007 at 4:02 pm
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October 8, 2007 at 7:37 pm
Irving
You are in my prayers and thoughts, dear Sister. And please please get a lawyer and sue the insurance company. They always deny such claims until forced to accept them.
May Allah bless you and aid you. He is both pain and cure.
Ya Haqq!
October 9, 2007 at 1:34 am
Shahrzad
May God give you health Baraka. I pray for you..
October 9, 2007 at 4:05 am
walaya
While we pray for you, please remember to pray for the ummah. Your prayers/duaa are much closer to Allah than any of the (relatively) healthy persons.
May Allah grant you speedy recovery. May Allah make this a reason for purification for your heart and soul. May Allah replace your anguish and pain with ease and something much better.
I don’t know where you live, but I would have loved to visit you in this month!
Don’t lose hope,
… “hold fast to the rope of Allah……” (3:103)
October 9, 2007 at 5:11 am
aluchaat
You are in my prayers.
October 9, 2007 at 10:38 am
luckyfatima
oh this is infuriating. inshallah you will be able to advocate for and recieve this treatment. many, many du’as.
October 9, 2007 at 6:20 pm
Aisha
You’re in my prayers. I’m so sorry. Also, remember, a lawyer can do wonders too…. if you have a friend practicing in your state it wouldn’t hurt to discuss this and your options with them too. You are in my prayers.
October 10, 2007 at 1:50 am
Tasmiya
Oh dear sister Baraka. I hope all goes well tomorrow. GO GET ‘EM!
You are in my thoughts and duas.
October 10, 2007 at 2:00 pm
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October 10, 2007 at 3:33 pm
Raza Rumi
Dear Sister
My prayers are with you…
InshAllah, things will work out for you. He is the Master and the Provider - and finds a way out even in the most difficult of situations.
Ya Salaam-u and Ya-Hai-u
October 10, 2007 at 6:20 pm
Muniza
My prayers are with you! May Allah grant you shifa and make things easy for you! Miss you a lot!
October 10, 2007 at 7:06 pm
Baraka
Salaam ‘alaykum all,
Jazak Allah khair to everyone for your warm duas!
I am always humbled and touched at how lucky I am to have such sincere and supportive friends. May God bless you for reaching out in my time of need!
I’ve gotten some helpful information from the Devic’s support listserv I’m part of - it looks like I have to be a strong advocate for myself. According to the insurance company website they have ‘a policy to allow for off-label use of medications if prescribed for the treatment of an illness that is life-threatening or chronic and seriously debilitating.’
This certainly fits that criteria so I will be calling them and faxing a strongly worded letter & backing it up with my medical file, and insha-Allah it will be approved.
Thank you again!!
Warmly,
Baraka
October 11, 2007 at 3:45 am
Margari Aziza Hill
Salaam ‘Alaikum
You are on my short list for duas!! Let us know if a letter blitz campaign will help!!
October 16, 2007 at 11:21 am
fara
Allahu yashfeek, dear sister!
“…Allah, please remove the harm and heal her, for You are the Healer and there is no healing except Your healing, with a healing which does not leave any disease behind!”
Ameen!